Sunday, July 13, 2008

survey for single peeps...

1. Bakit ka pa single hanggang ngayon?
- dahil... kelangan bang may dahilan? maybe because i forgot how to really FALL... in love.

2. Nainlove ka na ba sa taong hindi mo pa nakikita?
- hindi pa naman...

3. Nagkakacrush ka naman ba?
- ÜÜ

4. Mga friends mo rin ba single?
- yung iba

5. Describe being single in 3 words:
- carefree, open, wondering

6. Choose: steady bf/gf, mu, flirting?
- steady naman... pero, for the moment, parang i want to try flirting :))

7. What do you do when you’re bored?
- watch TV, listen to chillout sounds, sleep, study (oo... work-related matters)

8. Tingin mo when ka ulit magiging in love?
- actually, i'm 'in-love' every now and then... un nga, i forgot how to really fall and commit :-(

9. Message to the other singles?
- don't wait for chances... take them (nabasa ko sa isang shop sa sm megamall kahapon)

10. May namimiss ka ba sa pagkaroon ng bf/gf?
- hay... oo.

11. Ready ka na bang magmahal ulit?
- siguro...

12. Sino naman sa tingin mo?
- sino nga ba?

13. Meron ka bang crush or minamahal ngaun?
- crush na minamahal ;))

14. Paano ka ba magmahal?
- pano nga ba? maybe you have to experience it para malaman ;))

15. Sweet ka ba?
- when i have someone by my side (wee :)) )

16. Sa friends list mo, sa tingin mo ba may mamahalin ka sa kanila?
- actually...

17. Sino naman?
-

18. Sa tingin mo ba may nagkaka-crush sayo na taga FS mo?
- wehehehe. wala.

19. Kung may magsabi sayo na crush ka niya, ano sasabihin mo?
- mapapangiti, tapos "ang funny mo talaga!" (baka sapakin ako).
but seriously, i'll thank the person.

20. Magtatampo ka ba or magagalit kapag hindi ka niya tinext or tinawagan the whole day?
- may karapatan ba ako?

21. What will you do pag brineak ka ng bf/gf mo or pinagpalit ka sa iba?
- ewan... depende siguro sa reason. but definitely, i'll feel down.

22. Naghahanap ka ba ng sobrang ganda/gwapo na bf/gf?
- nope. it'll also wear out...

23. Gusto mo ba mayaman?
- pwede... but it's not on my list

23. Two-timer ka ba?
- isa lang ang puso ko.

24. Nag-eexpect ka ba na babasahin 'to ng crush o type mo?
- hindi.

25. Nainlove ka na ba sa attitude lang?
- humahanga

26. Madami na bang nanloko sayo?
- ala. tsaka... ba't ako magpapaloko, especially about love?

27. Mahilig ka ba sa singkit?
- hmmm... not much. pero interesting ung features nila ;))

28. Define love in one word:
- enduring

29. Last question: pag nagka-bf/gf ka ba this time, do you think na kayo na till the END?
- oo

Sunday, June 08, 2008

ang pighati ng nawalan ng cellphone... :((

sa 'di inaasahang pagkakataon... nawala ang pinakamamahal kong phone.

kahit pobreng 1110 lang yun, na pag inilalabas ko ay mukhang nalipasan na ng mga vga, mp3, wap-enabled, dual-sim, at 3g phones, keri lang kasi dahil sa kanya, nagagawa kong makipagtalastasan sa mga minamahal, minahal, mamahalin.. kaibigan, kaklase, kakilala sa kung saan, at kung sinu-sino pa... dahil wala na siya, mami-miss ko kayo... nami-miss ko na siya...

'di ko man lang siya nabigyan ng pangalan... hay...

kaya... ang talang ito ay inaalay ko sa alaala ng nawala (ngunit umaasa pa 'ring masumpungan) na cellphone ko... si yumi.

kung saka-sakaling kinontak kayo ng cellphone ko, tanong 'nyo naman kung nasaan siya, para magkasama na muli kami.

on a serious note...

peeps...
for the moment, you may contact through:

this multiply account;

my friendster account (http://www.friendster.com/jadedjayson);

and

YM (myxtix21/wyndercroft_0).

for urgent matters, you may contact me at office:

Jayson Ray "Jay-R" Pascua

Travel Coordinator

Rajah Travel Corporation

3rd Floor, Gercon Plaza, Makati Ave., Makati City

Tel: 894-0886 loc. 1321

(hehe, nag-plug na ng business contact.)

if you need help po regarding outbound/domestic travel, processing of travel documents (passport, visa), and if you would want to inquire about a certain tour package, don't hesitate to contact me.

thanks!

Sunday, June 01, 2008

all in a day's work

it had been a month...

ang bilis. pakiramdam ko parang last week lang ako nagsimula... hay...

naka-sahod na ako... parang wala lang. ganun pala pag pinag-trabahuhan mo yung pera mo. nagiging mas kuripot ka, mas masinop sa mga gastusin.

wala nang mahahabang bakasyon. walang x'mas at summer break. pag holidays at weekends na lang. sa ngayon, imbes na lumabas, babawi na lang sa pahinga sa maga araw n yun.

isang buwan. marami pang susunod na isang buwan. tapos maiisip ko... parang araw lang ang mga buwan (ano?!... hehe.)

hay, eto muna sa ngayon... pag may gana na ulit ako... yun.

maaga pa kasi ako bukas. pasukan na sa eskwela. malamang hebigat na naman ang trapik... lalo na sa C5... dahil sa p*steng U-turn na yan... sana flyover na lang yung ginawa nila... hay...

Friday, April 25, 2008

mahal kita...

bakit ba? hehe.

chorvang post...

kelan... kelan ko kaya muling sasambitin?

hay...

grad na bukas!

Sunday, April 06, 2008

bolinao...

ang layo pala...

masaya...

hay...

"when a girl changes
from body socks to stockings...
then she is ready
to give her heart away..." - from an old ballad

Saturday, March 29, 2008

frustrated

sad...

haven't joined the sem ender...

so i cooked...

to ease my frustration...

carbonara...

pero...

palpak yung sauce...

nasobrahan ng itlog...

ayun, namuo...

'eatable' naman...

hay...

one should have happy thoughts whill cooking...

Tuesday, March 25, 2008

patikim... masarap na restaurant!

patikim sa next post....

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got this e-mail, monday, march 26, 2006

which i received from laren... from martin... and so on....

copied the content verbatim...

DISCLAMER: this post might be offensive to YOU! the post contains texts and visual of relatively "obscene" nature. the article has been posted without malice... just for laugh. the blogger does not, in any way, confirm or refute the existence of the said establishment, as some affirmative remarks had been included in the source e-mail. requests for a copy of the source e-mail would be enthusiastically entertained by the blogger...

tama na! um-order na kayo! =))

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CREATIVE PINOY MEALS

humahabol

hay... [na naman]

naghahabol ata ako sa multiply.

maya't maya may bagong pics.

konting type sa blog dito.

post ng comment doon.

hmm... ['yoko na ng hay]

siguro dahil nagsawa na akong mag-chat.

siguro.

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

bakit?

bakit ako naapektuhan? dapat hindi. pero oo. babalik ako... sasagutin ko ang mga sinabi mo... akala ko OK ka... aalamin ko pa lang pala...

pagbalik ko sa chatroom... makikita mo.

Sunday, March 09, 2008

ayoko na

ayoko lang... bakit ba?!

bangag eh...

hay, haba pala ng last post ko... grabe, napagod utak ko dun...

hay... wala pa ring kwenta blog ko...

nasa multiply na, wala pa rin atang nagbabasa...

pano pa kaya yung comment... wala ngang dumadaan...

hay...

ang blog na ako lang...

blog ko, gawa ko, para sa'kin... hay...

self-pity...

Thursday, March 06, 2008

orgasmic experience (itsnotwatchatink!)

06 march 2008.

another memorable and fulfilling morning of my relatively simplistic, fleeting existence.

i am so full. i feel so full of inspiring "crap" that i have written this right after we've left his overwhelming solace... in PH 216-218.

this feeling. this height (or depth) of consciousness. this... ecstasy. so powerful that it penetrates the deepest realms of my mind and being... this... much much more than the high i feel after watching a movie.

my thanks to the STS group project, i had this utterly spine-tingling sensation... wanting to curl myself on the floor, close my eyes, and ravish the sensation... and yes, i feel like dying...

this morning, there he was, the cause of this, of my ecstasy. jerry araos. the artist. the Uber artist. the most interesting, interactive artist i've ever met. the conversation, his stories, his sharing of himself to us... to me... so immense. full of meat. of thought, about life, art, dying...

forgive me for being "poetic" (duh?) but oh...
ahmmm...
as the cliche goes, language couldn't express this feeling...
the experience. just experience it for yourself.
oh but how?
again, i feel the shivers through my body. tingling on my spine. the numbness... oh...

jerry araos... artist. never sells his artworks. only lends it. because according to him...
"art for sale is prostitution"

that being an artist requires a different level of intelligence.
he told a story about the rhode island school of art, the "most expensive" art school in the world...
applicants are accepted only if there are "A" students. else, they suggest them to become doctors, lawyers, engineers, etc.
because such courses have something you could refer to... medical books, civil codes, building codes...
that to become such, you only need to pass board exams, bar exams, competency exams... exams... exams...

but an artist... yes, an artist, a true artist, must be able to think beyond...
beyond the "here and now"
not just out of the box.
as he put it, we are using only 5% of our brain. that is the here and now. for if we use more, we'll be haggards, stressed, [will need stresstabs..]...
to go beyond, we must use the other 5 percents of our brain... to do so... we must die...
die with our present 5%, to use the other 5 percents...
then we think beyond... die a little... and go great lengths...


for art conceives... and science implements.

he told how da vinci conceived the design of the bicycle... despite the lack of technology to produce it...
and technology caught up later, and now we have these 2-wheeled contraptions...
art conceives. science implements.

a plain, conventional table. that's it. no surprise. that's what we call vision speed, he says.
by making something else on a table... curved ends, holes along the sides, protruding spokes... the vision speed is broken, interrupted.

you then ask... why? why such?
he didn't just put the oddities there just because he wanted to...it had something to do with art and its interactivity...
why? he explains...

when you ask a question,
you start to care,
when you care,
you start to relate...
[which is the essence of our humanity].

and i am amused. dazed.

his chairs, oh... his chairs... same with his other wooden sculptures, were made using recycled wood. his chairs... made to comfort our sorry asses (uhm...) from the conventional seats that ruin our body, our posture.
his chairs were designed for the asian people... unlike the common american/european tools that we unknowingly sit upon. his knowledge of the "proper" way to sit defies the basic concepts of ergonomics... that he applies ergonomics in a "different" perspective, a perspective that seems to me is of art and of sense.
he has chairs
for social drinking.
for thinking
for everything...
he even got a chair made by his female student... chair that surely serves its purpose well...
of pleasuring a woman... making a woman capable of fondling herself, ravishing her body...
"parausan," that's how it's called...

the national museum. for someone to have an exhibit in the museum, one has to satisfy 2 criteria:
the person has to be very famous.
the person has to be 'very' dead.
but on the celebration of its centenary... they decided to hold one featuring a living artist, still maintaining the first criterion.
and there was this shortlist... the sculptor napoleon abueva, this famous painter (i forgot the name), and this "gagong" artist.
napaleon was crossed out because he submits his works late and they're a bit commercialized. the other one was crossed out too bacause they've seen painying as a "thin" art, only cognitive. so all that's left was the "gagong" artist, and that "gago" was he. (haha)

wittingly, as he said, out of humility... he owns the most beautiful artist's garden in the world, for it won the prize in a world art competition which name i forgot... (huhu...).

it was a scuplture competition. and yet he presented a garden as an entry. he coined it "a sculpture as a garden."
while other entries were monuments, his was a garden...

and the judges... the judges... prominent people from renowned art museums... head, directors of such...
and they asked him...
"why a garden?"

and he replied...
"this is sculpture as a garden.
while a monument is vertical, mine is horizontal.
a monument is a landmark, a garden is a destination.
the monument's audience is a spectator, but the garden makes them participants.
the monument evokes a sense of being; the garden, a sense of becoming."

[nosebleed muna... brainbleed na rin}

and he won.
and he "humbly" told it. (haha)

and i am, along with my groupmates, are so flattered that he invited us to visit his garden... for free!
imagine, every year, he receives about 25,000 applications to visit his garden...
he allows only 200.
this year, he had already accomodated 16 (or 60), cooked for them... for a fee of Php1500/person.
us... a visit, plus a complementary dish he'll personally cook for us... he said he's a good cook, no. a great cook. we asked if what's his specialty. he replied, "it's like asking me who's my favorite child is..."
enough said. *wink* *wink*

so...
i am still high...
like lots of serotonin and adrelaine circulate in my body...
such feeling...

like i had an orgasm (oh!)... but an intellectual...

no, maybe something more...

yes, a spiritual orgasm.

*shivers* *devilish smile* *eyes rolling up*

PS.

please do "google" him on the web... jerusalino "jerry" araos... and please, if you can, read his critically-acclaimed (yes, it IS) book, "The Garden of Two Dragons Fucking" [yes... i know... and don't judge it by its title *wink*]... will do a follow-up post about the book... 'coz he gave us a copy AND money for us to reproduce it *wink* *wink*

Wednesday, March 05, 2008

hi

Saturday, March 01, 2008

first impressions and sex appeal

yesterday, while me and my partner was finishing the chapter 5 of our thesis... i chanced to browse upon the pages of an oddly-lying book on the table, misplaced from the hallowed shelf space it belongs by an unmindful person who i don't care to imagine about...

a paragraph from the last chapter of part 3, which talks about sex appeal... okay.. i get it... something must be going on in your head... why sex appeal? darn. just read.

"sexuality is about responsiveness. it is showing people, however subtly, that you find them attractive or interesting. this is the essence of flirting. even if people don't reciprocate your interest, you will likely make them feel good about themselves and thus feel good about you. when you show this attention, it doesn't have to suggest that you intend to go any further, and it doesn't have to suggest real sexual or romantic interest. it can be a way of creating a momentary world of 'you and me' " (Demarais & White. (2005). First impressions: What you don't know about how others see you. London: Hodder & Stoughton).

so? therefore, as the paragraph suggests, being "sexual," if asserted in an appropriate context, is helpful in making the most out of first impressions... hmmm... sounds easy... but... at least for me, knowing my personality, this is such a heart-thumpin' move i might not pull off... maybe if i'm somewhere, being someone... with strangers... maybe... maybe...

hay... exploring the possibilities of having an alter ego. actually...

Saturday, February 23, 2008

high up below...

i am on a high... on a high... there's nothing more to it (yeah)...

.. the sea and the sky and the blue that runs through it (yeah)...

watched GATTACA (starring ethan hawke and uma thurman) earlier, around 10pm till 'round 12am... and i became high... still feeling high that i am posting something in my "whatever... forsaken" blog of my creation... i hope i can make sense of my euphoric state, or whatever state i may be in at the moment...

i just observed... that everytime i watch a movie, especially when alone, i get high... i dunno, weird, maybe wonderful. as i stare at the closing credits... the essence of the movie sinks into me, into the depths of my subtle mind, deep into the pockets of my collective memory, concscious, unconscious, id, ego, superego... as if the movie is playing inside my brain, staring at me in my eyes, as if hallucinating; a moment engulfed in the essence's awakening embrace.

resurrected. yes, resurrected from the barren death of my routines; endless repetitions. my thoughts wander through what i have seen and absorbed... the scenes, as i mingle with the events, explore the setting, meet the characters... and become one. or maybe be the one watching them from above.

gattaca. a place where the elite work and gather, where only those 'valid' could access its hallowed premises, those who have been genetically-modified to become 'superior' beings: better physical endurance, higher IQ, to name some. they become immune to crimes, granted limitless freedom, almost untouched by law, and sent on space missions of a nature i don't know.

and the in-valid. those of 'normal', conventional conception, of which come along limitations and defects... 'normal' levels of heart rate, endurance and whatever, congenital defects, and others... they serve the elite, the valid...

valids are destined to greatness. in-valids aren't. they serve them, live a slavic life, attend to some valids' whimsical needs...

and he... vincent... an in-valid... desired to become valid more than anything else.

and he did... just to reach the stars... and vincent became jerome.. and reached them.

"every single atom in our body has come from the stars... we're not leaving (earth), we're coming home to the stars..."

am still high. still high... maybe with jerome, coming home...

i like this state. as as lull to myself to sleep... the movie will run through, taking me away... imagining, no, embracing the alternate reality... living it, realizing myself in it... a self so different, so... liberated. far from the clutches that keep me still on the ground, keeping me away from the vast ocean of sky, from the depths of my eyes.

i am.

Thursday, February 14, 2008

the chatter and his V-day

happy heart's day to all (belated, technically).

whew... such a day...

all black. the shoes. the socks. the slacks. the sling bag. the folded-up long sleeves. the hair. black looks good. black means no dandruff. clear... has zinc vitanol...

my name is ray (jayson ray) <<>>

hay, ewan!

why black? wala lang. naisip ko lang last week n i want to wear black sa valentine's. take note, 'di ko naisip si piolo... wala lang talaga. feel ko lang mag-itim. care nyo??? ay, ang sungit.... bitter lang siguro... wahaha! (pero interested akong pumunta sa CLEAR Black Valentine Party nila sa The Fort ngayong sabado... andun kasi si Moony! oh my gosh! i feel like partying... pero hindi. alang pera. huhu).

tapos napag-usapan sa org (go eCOTOUR!) na mag-iitim ang mga 'single' members, wala lang, chorvah lang... single's awareness day daw (?). hehe.

kaya ayun, all black ako. at napansin kahit ayoko... hay... hindi siya nag-itim (huh?). basta. sa'kin na lang yun.

so there, despite the brain-wrecking exams and a quiz, i managed to pass through the day wearing my all black attire (save for the blue pen, blue folder and orange handkerchief). i brought my digicam to capture some of my 'black' moments (see related photo album), myself and with other 'balck' people...

whew... just... just felt confused again today... especially in the afternoon, where i was... darn... so ewan... so aloof? no. it was just... well, some matters of the heart i'm shy to admit and do... just... just sensing... maybe not just now... argh! just don't mind.

***

and what about chatting?

in continuation, well... i've chatted with quite a few sensible ones that were open with what they have in life (just not sure if they were all true, but my heart says that i should believe them). a busy school girl, a 25-year old graduate bumming around, pinay from japan, pinoy from dubai, fil-am from new york, a pretty teen mom, a 3rd year UP diliman ChE student, a gay in love, and other bunch of interesting people.

different stories. different personalities. no holding back. truth is relative. privacy is everything.

j@yson: care to chat?

more... soon.

Saturday, February 02, 2008

chatting up late...

why oh why??? such an interesting activty is discovered so late by this quirky boy...

countless rooms, nonsense talk, pissing people, pissed people, interesting, naughty, nuances, pretty, everything... all these in exchange of staying up late 'till the early morn. damn... i'm getting hooked up.

why?

to be continued...