a raised fist... in the depths of my room.

here i am in my room typing this... (obvious!)
i saw how the events unravelled last night, at least on TV. i hoped i was there to witness it.
i hope i am in UP now, hearing talks about it.. partaking with the people.
i feel i am ready to support them. rally for the country's best interest: the people's interest.

ISKOLAR NG BAYAN, NGAYON AY LUMALABAN!
NGAYON AY LUMALAABAAN, ISKOLAR NG BAYAN!

metaphorically, i am ready to join (i think)... but something held me back.
rather, someone...

my mom.

yeah right... then i remembered what professor randy david wrote in his column - we [males] are accountable first and foremost, to our mothers.

topsy-turvy

hay, naku! di ko na naharap 'tong blog ko! dami kasing pinagkakaabalahan! (kuno)
i have ideas/thoughts/perceptions/whatevers stuck in my mind, but now, i can't arrange them properly to have a visible flow of thought. so for now, i'll just make an outline about them. i hope i could edit this post later (which i don't know when). good luck to me!

• [G]od
• death
• my "crushes"
• guinsaugon tragedy in southern leyte
• mass action in EDSA yesterday
• panahon na ba talaga para kumilos?
• ... para ako'y sumama sa pagkilos?
• APATHY
• CONFORMITY
• DEVIANCE
• REFORM
• the future of our country
• my future
• what-to-do in my current subjects
• my weird dreams (again)
• friends
• keeping in touch with them
• the reality of my existence
• the vast universe
• paradox[es] in life
• paradox of life, itself...
• ... and of love (shucks!)
• field trip na namin sa March 3!

i guess that's it... maybe i'll be back here posting after our trip to banawe and sagada...

see ya!

delayed... so late (2)

at last i have the luxury of time to post by babblings here. it had been a busy week and more things might come this time around. hay...

my sassy girl
i really, really longed to watch this flick since i heard the 'romantic' comments and reviews from my peers... freshman pa lang ata ako nun. grabe ang tagal ko na palang naghihintay. may mga sinubukan akong hiraman pero di ko naman mahiram kasi maraming nakapilang hihiram. salamat kay she napanood ko na rin sa ito sa wakas... last january 24. grabe! ang busy ko talaga dahil ngayon lang ako nag-post tungkol dito.

i'll spare you the synopsis. panoorin niyo na lang. basta, after viewing it, i felt so "in-love". yes, the guy's so sweet. she's so beautiful. it seemed that i longed for love, that i want to love and be loved, again. i was lovestruck, i think up to now... pero deep inside... bitter ako!

dead thoughts
recurring thoughts about death... why? i don't understand. i have been thinking of death, my death, from the moment i lie on my 'improvised bed' 'till the moment i lose my consciousness. i shouldn't be thinking of my death, at least for know... because i'm at the prime of my life! why should i think i will die? i must think that i am immortal, that i am bound to achive "great" things! and yet i still think of it every single night... i think about what does it feel like after i "die"? what would happen to me? where will "I" go, if there is somewhere to go to?

i hope i could stop my twitched mind from "imagining" this thing. i just hope...

reality
i assume we have relative perceptions of it. what is it, then?

delayed... so late...

whew... a relatively long time had past since my last post. i think i should motivate myself to post here more often... but why should i?! who cares?!

gosh!!! i don't have much time! it's late. i need to study pa for a quiz tomorrow in tourism 120 (management). yes, i feel nerdy right now. (smiles).

but later i'll post about "sassy girl," some thoughts about love, death and reality, plus some other little things that bothers me. grrrr..... ;)