x'mas 2006 wish list

hey now now... pasko na naman! regaluhan na naman and everything!!! hay... masaya nga, pero in the back of my mind, may nage-echo.... (g-a-s-t-o-s-!) yikes!

o, bago pa ako matorete sa kung anu-ano, eto na ang listahan!

1) crocs - parang may fetish na nga ako for this... kaya lang ang mahal, mga P 1620 lang naman.

2) laptop - to have the tech mobility i want (ching!)

3) digicam - to satisfy my hunger for pictures (ek-ek)

4) usb flash - 'coz i'm still stuck in using diskettes. e ang la-laki ba naman ng files na kelangang i-store e... nahihiya na rin akong mang-hiram, tsaka abala din kasi win98 lang OS ko sa pc, so i have to download usb drivers pa...

5) computer upgrade - para ma-solve na ang problem ko sa usb's at gumanda ang look ng presentations (karir!)

6) game console - xbox 360 or playstation 3 pwede na (?). medyo na bo-bore na ako sa atari namin (oo, atari. operational pa siya. kelangan mo munang painitin para umayos ang graphics, parang kotse. hehe. magkano na kayo ito pag ibebenta? e may bibili kaya?)

7) naruto and one piece - yung lahat ng episodes, lahat ng seasons, pati movies kung meron. nakakabitin kasing panoorin sa tv.

hayan... mga simpleng hiling lang naman... 'di naman ako nag-eexpect. kung me matupad man, salamat. kung tutuusin, mga wants lang ang laman ng listahan (pwera sa usb, kelangan ko na talaga yun!).

tandaan na wala sa mga regalo at kung ano pang anik-anik chorvaluh ang "diwa ng pasko" (ching!) kundi nasa pagnamnam sa presence ni "god" at mga nagmamahal sa'yo!

SANA'Y MAGKAROON TAYONG LAHAT NG ISANG MALIGAYANG PASKO AT MANIGONG BAGONG TAON!!!

bum ta-rat (1)

yeah, right... ang tagal na naman mula nang maglagay ako ng post dito... hay... ang dami-dami na namang nangyari sa pobreng buhay kong ito, mula nung huling entrada dito. hay... di ko na matiyagang mai-update malimit ang dyaskeng blog na itres... (paumanhin sa salita. sinasadya).

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ninong
noong ika-22 ng nobyembre, fly ako kasama ang pamilya somewhere in caloocan, malapit sa SM fairview... sa kadahilanang magni-ninong ako sa binyag ng cutie baby girl ng aking girly pinsan (pinsan nga ba? kasi si "insan" ay anak ng anak ng kafatid ng lolo ko sa father's side... whatever).

ay, muntik na kaming ma-lost from SM fairview going to the destination. buti na lang at nakaalpas kami sa urban maze with the not-so-helpful mapa na pinalayo pa kami, eh may mas malapit namang way... oh well, thanks to kuya driver maluwalhati kaming nakarating sa gate ng subdivision ng aking inaanak... ibang istorya pa yung pagpunta sa bahay nila.

ayun... salamat ulit sa mapa, mga n times lang naman kami naglibot sa subdivision para mahanap ang naka-"X" na place. ay naku, nakakaloka. block at lot number lang kasi ang nakalagay kaya kahit yung mga pinagtanungan naming taga-dun, di rin sigurado kung saan. kumbaga sa stat, mga 90% confident. pero wala pa rin eh, kaya nagpasya kaming sa place na lang ni tito't tita (sa parents ni insan) pumunta.

tinawagan na nga ni mama si tito. block 22 lot 21 daw. hay... konting ikot na lang, naisip ko. ikot. ikot. ikot. block 21. malapit na. i k o t pa... ayun nahilo na kami. buti na lang at nakasalubong namin yung isa kong pinsan (first cousin ko) with her friend na hinahanap din kami. at sa wakas, we arrived at the place... na kanina pa pala namin nadaanan... dulot na ata ito ng sobrang pagkahilo, malala.

pagpunta sa simbahan, natapos na ang "lost" spell. pa-convoy effect pa nga kami eh. ayun, at naidaos din ang pagbibinyag ni cutie baby girl, along with 3 other babes. imagine 24 kaming mga ninong at ninang at karamihan ay pawang mga kamag-anak pa. well, talk about very strong family ties. pero out of 24, eh mga sampu lang ata yung dumating. ayun, pichur-pichur chorvah etceterah.

pagpunta sa reception, convoy ulet. wow, and yummy ng food (lagi naman) at nabusog ako nang sobra. nasulit ang hirap namin, hehe. joke lang po! ano ba, i went there for the baby, extra na lang yung food (ows... excuses). 'di, seryoso. ;)

after kumain at tsikahan of sorts, sibat na kami. pumunta pa kasi kami sa mandaluyong, may dinaanan pang something sa office ni mama. at sa wakas... home sweet home na ulet... ;)

parang di ko parin feel maging ninong actually pangalawa ko na 'to. earlier this year kasi nag-ninong din ako ng cutie baby girl ng pinsan ko (first cousin sa mother's side) somewhere in marikina. naku... iba talaga pag bumabata, in demand.

malapit na ang pasko. ninong na na ako. mararanasan rin ko kayang magtago sa mga inaanak? ikaw?


the bellevue experience
hay, grabe. super delayed na 'tong article na 'to. hello, second sem na! ah basta! enjoy ako sa stay ko dun... yun na yun! ;)

pictures to follow... (after 10 years) ;)

[ay, may maikling write-up na pala tungkol dito. ok lang. wish ko maulit ulit yung ganun... ;) ]


tarat't mag-LAKBAY!
how fateful... lakbay... eic??? bigat nun ah... this second sem is really about responsibilities, aside from acads. i guess it means life will be a bit more "colorful" this time, at least. gotta do something now... or else... macho-chorva ako! guyz, need help. just contact me (09284109843) for write-ups, articles, photos or whatever you can contribute (kahit funds, even and inyong sarili) para sa beloved LAKBAY ng ait. salamuch! aja!

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ano pa ba ang masusulat??? ay, malapit na ang pasko... at bagong taon... ibig sabihin, malapit na ulit ang pasukan! ano ba, ang kj ko! umayos ka nga... hehe...

sUsUnod... my christmas wish list ;)

survivor

... whew... i managed to get through my Tourism 131 (Management Accounting) class.

grabe! ang saya! ayooos!

handa na akong mag-enrol sa lunes... ahihi!

at last...

bakasyon na talaga!!!

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by the way, about the swimming exam... well, i think i lost it...
i remembered well that our instructor scheduled it this morning...
excited pa naman akong bumawi. na-late pa nga ako ng kinse minutos. akala ko nagsimula na... tapos...

walang tao!!!

ano yun!? nagkamali ako sa date? hindi eh. natapos sila agad (magbihis - mag-swimming - maligo - magbihis) in 15 minutes? ang galing naman!!! nataranta na ako sa kaiisip...

... nang may dumating na kaklase... at dalawa na kaming nagtataka.

dumating din si ate janitress. nakiusap kami sa kanya na itanong kay mang mon (maintenance staff ng pool) kung dumating si sir instructor. ang sagot: isang masaklap na "hindi".

hay... wala kaming magawa kundi umusal ng "bahala na!"

*update*
lumipas ang bakasyon... ang "bahala na", naging tumataginting na 5!

plok plok

plok... plok [g-a-s-p]
blub... blub... bub [g--a--s--p]
wiggle. paddle. stroke. kick. [g---a---s---p]
float... <breathe>
sink a little [g-a-s-p]
drown a little [hang on to dear 3 (life)]



today

failed to finish 5 laps breastroke in 10 minutes [only did 4 and 1/2]
succeeded treading for 10 minutes [with ocassional touching of the poolside]

be back with vengeance on friday...
to conquer 5 laps in 10 minutes...
and pass my exhausting swimming class.

kukurapkurap

hay...nakakatamad... minsan nakakawalang-gana... ewan ko ba...

ilan? halos tatlong buwan... oo, halos tatlong buwan din yun... ang bilis talaga ng panahon...

ganun na katagal yun? ganun ba???

ang hirap. ang hirap mabuhay sa mundong naghahabol ng oras. parang laging nauubusan ng panahon... o kaya'y wala nang panahon para tumigil, umupo, at manood ng paglubog ng araw...

mabilis ang mga pangyayari... parang walang dumaan na reports at exams.dumaan at lumipas lang ang kaarawan na sana'y labis na ninamnam. ang mga oras na inilaan sa pagtambay sa org, parang wala lang... ang magdamag na pamamalagi at ligaya sa otel, natapos sa isang kisapmata. ang pagtipa para sa lakbay sa ma-ulang hapon. ang "maluwalhati't mahalay" na interbyu sa org... kasama na ang mga mataas at mababang punto ng buhay... lahat ay lumipas ng ganun-ganun na lang.

sana... mas ninamnam ko pa... kahit yaong mga hirap, puyat, at kung anu-ano pa.

mahirap talagang maging alipin ng panahon... at ng sistema.

kalayaan. dalisay ba?

(malamang gagamitin ng mga tao sa likod ng site na ito ang impormasyong makukuha nila dito, kung meron man. kaya mag-ingat sa paggamit... lalo na ng e-mail. mahirap na.)

so long... nails

this might be an "off" topic for a guy, but, who cares... blog ko 'to. ;) okay..

so... i tried to grow my fingernails longer than they usually do. kasi kung mag-gupit ako ng kuko, sagad talaga, tipong walang space na pagsisiksikan ng dumi. ayun. even though dirt and whatever gets "deposited" under them, tiniyaga kong pahabain at linisin. kahit asar na ko, go pa rin. pero, parang pangit tingnan. yung yung white part, di talaga puti, parang dirty yellow.

kahit na-elibs ako dahil napahaba ko mga kuko ko, na-miss ko talaga yung dating maikli. almost two weeks din akong 'di nag-trim. ang hirap! kaya kaninang umaga, bago pumasok sa eskwela... goodbye long nails... welcome back, trimmed! hay...

am i developing a fetish on my nails???

drops over my head

hay... it's me again... bothering to clutter this worthless blog. since classes are suspended today... ano ba... uhmm... shet! wala lang akong magawa! i think my brain's not on "blog mode" today... baka dahil maulan.

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i wish i do have a camera-phone or a digicam to capture my sketches on my "lesson plan" notebook. maybe i have around 10 - 20 sketches already, in which i used my cheap, handy ballpoint pen. astig daw... sabi nung mga nakakakita. flattered naman ang lolo nyo... naa-astigan din ako (minsan) pero i don't think "maganda" siya by standards, astig lang tingnan. pero, napansin ko, medyo gumagaling na kong mag-sketch at mag-visualize ng mga bagay-bagay... at gumagaling ako 'pag nag-drowing ako habang nasa klase, lalo 'pag boring and uninteresting yung discussion. bakit kaya???

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Purpose-driven Update
i haven't read the book in 3 days already. i'm supposed to read chapter 13 today, but i'm still at chapter 7. nagsimula pa naman ako magbasa july 1... hay, commitment...

i am dead... or so i thought.

whew, it's good to be back after quite some time... isn't it?
i was bothered by other things here in the Internet and there in the "real" world that i miss to post something here, even if so much thoughts and clutter twitch my mere existence. damn...

Covergirl

yup! ellen adarna WAS on the cover of Candy's june ish. compared to the july 2005 ish, the shot is really a LOT like her. kudos to Candy for the nice cover! sadly, i didn't grabbed a copy... yet. but i really planned to have one since early June. but school expenses didn't allow me to. yeah right, it may "only" cost Php 85, but Php 85 is a luxury i seldom afford. though i have some spare money, i let this one pass. what's the use of back issues sold at Filbar's? hah! a way to justify my "ka-kuriputan". ;)

... some movies

Fight Club. viewed: twice. where: at "Studio 23 Presents". why: 'coz i like it.
yeah, this is one of the movies i would watch again, and again. i don't know why it never fails to have my attention. maybe its so insightful about the concept of modern living... stress... insomnia... modern "slaves"... being "in control"... and letting go of everything... physical pain to relieve stress, to be "free".

Love Actually.viewed: once. where: rented VCD from Video City, Sta. Luciawhy: primarily, as a prop for a class report about Video City. secondly, to watch it (duh?)
"i feel it in my fingers, i feel it in my toes. love is all around you, c'mon and let it show..."actually, "love" must be replaced with "christmas" and "show" with "snow". well, to fit the setting of the movie... christmas in UK. hmm..... i guess you'll just have to watch it. it's hard to explain, or tell. just one thing... i admire the boy who professed his "love" for joanna... ;)

Purpose-driven?

today, i started to read Rick Warren's "The Purpose-driven Life" in a dental clinic while waiting for my younger brother whose braces were adjusted. i originally planned to read it on my pace, but i didn't. i followed the rule "one chapter a day, for forty days". i'll just try if it will work on me. let's see after forty days... ;)

me... realist?

i thought so. but i was dead wrong. i am still afraid to go out, open myself to the complex world. maybe that's why the world doesn't reveal itself to me. i see what i only want to see, not what i need to see. i fail to see through the ugly, i lust look. i don't know. maybe i'm still confused with myself.

and i earlier glanced the back cover of an Alvin Toffler book that said: we live in a very complex world but we only give simplistic responses. could that be?

a long lost affair...

hay... how i miss blogging so much! i miss my pc too coz windows wouldn't run.. when i just installed a game?! wadafuck! that's why my internet persona had not been lingering around for a while... just now... and i'll be off again...

damn! for the love of the internet, i have to endure the EAR-PIERCING NOISE by the fuckin' gamers in this hella' computer shop! pity me...

sayang ang dami ko pa naman sanang ipo-post... sana maayos na yung pc... sana...

bored... or just something else

after my enrolment last monday for the summer session, my productivity had gone down. tinatamad lang ba ako o wala lang magawa? ewan.tinamaan na naman siguro ako ng katamaran. lintek! hay... pasukan na naman sa lunes.

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since i had nothing much to bother myself with, except yesterday when i wired a small portion of our house's roof gutter and removed the lamp post, i delved on the TV, specifically studio23s noontime movies. naka-dalawang araw ako, nung martes at kahapon.

nung martes pinalabas yung "Tinimbang Ka Ngunit Kulang." napanood ko na ito noon, sa studio23 rin, lenten specials naman. iba talaga yung pelikula. malalim. natawa ako at nainis. nariyan ang pusok ng kabataan, kalokohan ng mga "nakatatanda", at ka-ipokritohan ng komunidad. nakakainis yung mga "banal na tagapag-balita" [basa: lintek na tsismosa]. di ako sigurado kung bakit ako naiinis - dahil ba sa talagang nakakainis sila o marahil sadyang totoo at kakabit na ng kulturang Filipino. si junior, berto, at kuala... mga sawi.

kahapon naman, yung "Himala." kakaiba rin. it's more than the cliche "walang hiMALA!" oo. higit pa. nagkamali ako. nakahahabag si elsa. nakakaawa ang mga tao. lahat sila, nag-pUpUtahan - may nagbebenta ng himala, ng aliw, yung isa para sa pelikula nya. pero ang tumatak sa akin yung sinabi nung pari [na ginampan ni joel lamangan]. patawad kung may kaibhan, base na lang kasi ito sa aking pag-alaala. eto:

mahalaga na harapin natin ang katotohanan

pero wag tayong papabulag sa katotohanan

minsan kasi'y hindi ito makatao

minsan mas maganda pa ang kasinungalingan

lalo kung may kabutihan itong maidudulot...

katotohanan man o kasinungalingan

realidad o ilusyon,

ang mahalaga ay kung saan natin ito gagamitin.

hirap mag-comment about the films...

sana makapanood pa ako ng mga ganitong klase ng pelikula. sa mainstream kasi, siyempre komersyalisado na... nakabase ang istorya sa subok na pormula para kumita. ano pa nga ba ang aasahan natin? kung may susugal man, iilan lamang.

ngunit marami na ang sumusubok ibalik ang kahapon. umusbong na ang panahon ng mga indie at digital na pelikula. pinipilit nilang buhayin ang sining ng pelikula na nilunod ng komersyalisasyon. kunsabagay, wala namang maaaring mawala sa kanila. hay... mabuhay kayo!

nakapanghihinayang... di pa ako nakagkakaroon ng pagkakataong makapanood ng ganoon. maliban sa isa...

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whew... i'm having fun browsing pictures in frienster and myspace! cuteness!...

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i hope we'll all have a meaningful experience of the lenten season. amen.

whew!

(damn! i'm re-typing this post! hmph... my pc hanged. my post gone! crap.)

she's ellen meriam go adarna. at last, i knew her name! (thanks to a former classmate, AVA. thank you very much!). the earlier post, about something i found, was, well... about her. *smiles* she's really fascinating...

i saw her pic back then in friendster. since then, she caught my attention [related blog entry... here ;)].

last year, i saw the july ish of Candy magazine... noticed the covergirl who looked pretty much like her. "maybe it's her," i thought. but i quickly dismissed it, because of the thick layer of make-up and round face, compared to the one above. then, one day, ava left a comment here, telling me her name: ellen meriam go adarna. later, i stumbled upon a webpage about the july covergirl [see here]. surprise! IT'S HER! hahaha...

those rosy cheeks are really cute, i wanna blush! (rosy? yeah... make-up).

her pictures are everywhere in myspace and friendster. too bad, most of them are used by people posing to be her, using her pics and telling people it's "her" account, stealing her identity. damn fakers! try searching those networks and you'll see. well at least i found someone identifying herself, that she is just an avid fan, just using the pics. hay... people.

could that happen to me? or... you?

to me, i don't think so.

i'm so happy, i wanna burst!

ha ha ha ha ha!!!
i found something about someone somewhere! very, very pretty...

it just made my day, overcoming the grudge i had earlier because someone "messed" things up in my room...

ha ha ha!
what did i find?
i'll think if i'll tell...

what i found... it's priceless.

cool, lonely summer

nagtapos na naman ang isang semestre... andito na naman ako sa pinakamamahal kong tahanan... kasama ang pamilya... ayus! family bonding ulet... pero minsan pakiramdam ko... ewan.

minsan talaga, mas gusto ko maging alone, pero di naman lonely. ewan. minsan, o marahil, madalas, mas gusto ko mag-isa. di naman sa ayaw kong may kasama, gusto ko lang talaga. oras para sa sarili, para magmuni-muni sa kung anu-ano. minsan naman, gusto ko ng kasama, [mga] kaibigang pwedeng abalahin nang sandali para makatabi, para makausap nang kahit sandaling panahon. masaya na 'ko dun. sana sila rin. ewan. masyado lang siguro akong nagiging self-oriented. huwag naman sana. di naman siguro...

nakakatuwa. dalawang linggo akong walang pasok. ang daming pwede, o dapat, gawin dito sa bahay. kelangang mga-ayos ng aking kwarto, ilibot yung aming sasakyan paminsan-minsan, linisin at i-tune-up yung bike ko [may alikabok na at medyo mahina na yung brake], linisin etong PC ko. hay... maliban dyan, kung papalarin, sana makakuha na ako ng student driver's license! matagal ko na kasing pinaplano, pero di matuluy-tuloy. sana rin, magka-raket ako ngayong summer, para may panggastos kahit papano kung may kakailanganin ako. hay...

ang sarap talaga dito sa bahay... pero minsan, nakakasawa na rin. kelangan ding lumabas... parang ako. di ako ako dapat palaging nag-iisa. kelangan ding makisalamuha. minsan din, di maiiwasang malungkot pag nag-iisa...

pictures! at last!

tourism 113: banaue-sagada trip
eto na ang mga group pichurs. sa wakas ay napa-develop, na-scan, at na-upload ko na!
in fairness, ang hirap mag-ipon ng pera for photo finishing. to follow na lang yung sceneries, etc.



looking at the pictures, i just noticed something...
or maybe i'm looking through them with something in my eyes...
maybe it's just me again, thinking something in the depths of my puny, little head. :(

happy but depressed

arrived yesterday morning from our trip to banaue and sagada.
wala lang. ok lang.
it was fun.

the pictures to be posted soon.

yipee!

later, at around 11 pm, me and my classmates in Tourism 113 will be off to Banaue and Sagada 'till monday!

Godspeed to us!

till then, see ya around!

a raised fist... in the depths of my room.

here i am in my room typing this... (obvious!)
i saw how the events unravelled last night, at least on TV. i hoped i was there to witness it.
i hope i am in UP now, hearing talks about it.. partaking with the people.
i feel i am ready to support them. rally for the country's best interest: the people's interest.

ISKOLAR NG BAYAN, NGAYON AY LUMALABAN!
NGAYON AY LUMALAABAAN, ISKOLAR NG BAYAN!

metaphorically, i am ready to join (i think)... but something held me back.
rather, someone...

my mom.

yeah right... then i remembered what professor randy david wrote in his column - we [males] are accountable first and foremost, to our mothers.

topsy-turvy

hay, naku! di ko na naharap 'tong blog ko! dami kasing pinagkakaabalahan! (kuno)
i have ideas/thoughts/perceptions/whatevers stuck in my mind, but now, i can't arrange them properly to have a visible flow of thought. so for now, i'll just make an outline about them. i hope i could edit this post later (which i don't know when). good luck to me!

• [G]od
• death
• my "crushes"
• guinsaugon tragedy in southern leyte
• mass action in EDSA yesterday
• panahon na ba talaga para kumilos?
• ... para ako'y sumama sa pagkilos?
• APATHY
• CONFORMITY
• DEVIANCE
• REFORM
• the future of our country
• my future
• what-to-do in my current subjects
• my weird dreams (again)
• friends
• keeping in touch with them
• the reality of my existence
• the vast universe
• paradox[es] in life
• paradox of life, itself...
• ... and of love (shucks!)
• field trip na namin sa March 3!

i guess that's it... maybe i'll be back here posting after our trip to banawe and sagada...

see ya!

delayed... so late (2)

at last i have the luxury of time to post by babblings here. it had been a busy week and more things might come this time around. hay...

my sassy girl
i really, really longed to watch this flick since i heard the 'romantic' comments and reviews from my peers... freshman pa lang ata ako nun. grabe ang tagal ko na palang naghihintay. may mga sinubukan akong hiraman pero di ko naman mahiram kasi maraming nakapilang hihiram. salamat kay she napanood ko na rin sa ito sa wakas... last january 24. grabe! ang busy ko talaga dahil ngayon lang ako nag-post tungkol dito.

i'll spare you the synopsis. panoorin niyo na lang. basta, after viewing it, i felt so "in-love". yes, the guy's so sweet. she's so beautiful. it seemed that i longed for love, that i want to love and be loved, again. i was lovestruck, i think up to now... pero deep inside... bitter ako!

dead thoughts
recurring thoughts about death... why? i don't understand. i have been thinking of death, my death, from the moment i lie on my 'improvised bed' 'till the moment i lose my consciousness. i shouldn't be thinking of my death, at least for know... because i'm at the prime of my life! why should i think i will die? i must think that i am immortal, that i am bound to achive "great" things! and yet i still think of it every single night... i think about what does it feel like after i "die"? what would happen to me? where will "I" go, if there is somewhere to go to?

i hope i could stop my twitched mind from "imagining" this thing. i just hope...

reality
i assume we have relative perceptions of it. what is it, then?

delayed... so late...

whew... a relatively long time had past since my last post. i think i should motivate myself to post here more often... but why should i?! who cares?!

gosh!!! i don't have much time! it's late. i need to study pa for a quiz tomorrow in tourism 120 (management). yes, i feel nerdy right now. (smiles).

but later i'll post about "sassy girl," some thoughts about love, death and reality, plus some other little things that bothers me. grrrr..... ;)

we are not what we [think we] are; we are what people project us...
we are nothing but blank screens.

- from TV cartoon series "Aeon Flux"

manny... money...

what a fight! manny won by knockout on the 10th round! awesome!

so what?

congratulations! you really are a pride of the Filipino people!

i hate those politicians... those filthy rich politicians who went to las vegas to watch manny, under the guise of supporting him.i doubt if they didn't cast bets. of course they did. siyempre, para mabawi nila yung mga gastos sa pagpunta at siyempre para kumita na rin.

later this evening, another LOTTO 6/49 draw will happen. the jackpot is now around 150 MILLION Php!

may mananalo kaya? di pa ako tumataya... baka manalo...


the 2 of the many-faceted me...

depressed. why should i?!

now i know... hay... naku.... ;(

(READ: to the girl i can't look at - nalaman ko rin. tumama nga ang hinala ko. hay. sana bumitaw na ako noon sa 'pangarap' ko. ang mangarap lang naman ang kaya ko, lalo na sa babaeng tulad mo...

bakit nga ba? ano bang meron ka? ganda? tinatanong pa ba yun! wits? meron. sociable? oo. kumbaga sa regalo, ayos ang package at ang laman. pero, parang may kakaiba. di ko alam e. siguro it's not you, it's me! duh, gasgas na ang linyang yan!

noon pa, sinabi ko na sa sarili ko dapat studies muna. lintek! kaya friends lang dapat... dapat walang motibo. pero hindi ganun ang nangyari. nakakainis! bakit ko ba nararamdaman 'to! dapat wala, wala, wala!!! pero meron, meron, meron!!! shet! ang gago ko!

ngayon alam ko na... may minamahal ka na pala. ok lang, buti nga at nalaman ko... salamat sa kaibigang nagsabi sa'kin [at sana'y panatilihin niyang lihim ang aking mga sinabi]. di kasi kita ganoon kakilala. ang tanga ko talaga! buti at matatapos na ang kahibangang ito...

salamat. kahit paano'y nakulayan mo ang buhay ko, at sana kahit paano'y ganoon din ako sa'yo...

salamat... wala kang alam tungkol dito.)

new year. new post. bad luck(?)

happy new year! yeah i know it's maybe too late for that, but who minds anyway?!

ang haba ng bakasyon ko from my blog. medyo nagloko kasi 'tong computer sa bahay - parang bumagal yung internet saka ang tagal mag-open ng bagong IE window. hay. ngayon medyo ok na. kaya i'm back to posting and doing other online-related activities!

it's FRIDAY THE 13TH!!!!!!!!!
seriously, i am not a believer of superstitions. but today seemed different... my one and only pair of brown Rusty sandals was gnawed by my beloved (read: CURSED) dog! damn! i love those sandals! i prefer those over my new Converse shoes, 'coz my feet could 'breathe' and they feel more comfortable.... grrr...

if could only gnaw my dog... grrr... :aw:::aw::: ;'(