who's afraid of death?

maybe i am. this uneasy feeling surged last thursday, during my biology 1 class, around 5pm...

more of this on tuesday. i am running out of time...

*update* 09-Dec-05

damn! i failed to update last tuesday. obvious ba?

ok. so that day, during my biology class, we watched a video - "understanding sex."

ano koneksyon?

i don't know.

well, the show biologically, socially, and psychologically explained SEX. of course minus the sexual heat, passion and other related stuff. then, thoughts rammed my head.

"what's my age again? yes, i just turned 19 last september. soon, i'll be 20.. 21.. 22.. n-1... n."

i thought it was over, but...

"when will i die? what is it like to die? what would i feel? will my precious memories be gone? will i go to another level of existence? or will death cease my existence, from here and beyond? how longer will i be able to cherish my existence, manipulate my life, satisfy myself, and LOVE OTHER PEOPLE?"

such and other similar thoughts still bother my head. i'm tired. maybe afraid. afraid that won't remember how my life went, what happenned, and most of all - HOW and WHY i LOVED WHO.