hi peeps! hope your having a good day, like me...
the following articles are posts from my friendster blog. they're quite a lot...
from now on, this site will be my main blog site.
quite interested? read on!
October 26, 2005
dreams... etc
roaring with rage
the other night (actually it was early morning) when i had this dream about me and my wife. weird, but my wife resembled the young vilma santos (wtf!). read on! but i think no one will be interested in this CRAP!
the dream: we were newlyweds, maybe a week or month had already past since then. we were happy, and our home was being built, almost finished. but a problem occurred, something that required legal undertaking to be solved. we were so desperate. without my knowledge, my wife sought help from an official, something like a development officer from the town hall. in exchange, she had to let the official ravish her body, that is, to have sex with him. and my wife did. i came to know all about this through a letter that official sent me (that bragging bastard!). he, through the letter, told me what happened... every detail, from the moment they met... what he did to her during sex... until she left the office. as i read, rage filled my heart (and i really felt it, the rage transcended from the dream to by body... really. i wonder why?). "i lovingly licked her 'tiara'," was the line from the letter that struck me (the tiara... its her.. pussy.. hehe). the rage was about to burst but... (i woke up! still feeling the rage, but slowly dissipating. then it was gone.) ANOTHER FUCKING WEIRD DREAM...
the other night (actually it was early morning) when i had this dream about me and my wife. weird, but my wife resembled the young vilma santos (wtf!). read on! but i think no one will be interested in this CRAP!
the dream: we were newlyweds, maybe a week or month had already past since then. we were happy, and our home was being built, almost finished. but a problem occurred, something that required legal undertaking to be solved. we were so desperate. without my knowledge, my wife sought help from an official, something like a development officer from the town hall. in exchange, she had to let the official ravish her body, that is, to have sex with him. and my wife did. i came to know all about this through a letter that official sent me (that bragging bastard!). he, through the letter, told me what happened... every detail, from the moment they met... what he did to her during sex... until she left the office. as i read, rage filled my heart (and i really felt it, the rage transcended from the dream to by body... really. i wonder why?). "i lovingly licked her 'tiara'," was the line from the letter that struck me (the tiara... its her.. pussy.. hehe). the rage was about to burst but... (i woke up! still feeling the rage, but slowly dissipating. then it was gone.) ANOTHER FUCKING WEIRD DREAM...
but had fun last night...
stayed awake till around midnight... listened to the radio (99.5 rt) from 11pm-midnight. it was the Guru! yup, listened to the 'temple of love' show by the great Guru Shibaker... (but i think SammY G and him are one and the same person... maybe i should call and ask sometime). ha! really fun to listen, especially those girl callers... they really have, umph, sexy voices. hmmm... i'm feeling naughty... bad boy!
stayed awake till around midnight... listened to the radio (99.5 rt) from 11pm-midnight. it was the Guru! yup, listened to the 'temple of love' show by the great Guru Shibaker... (but i think SammY G and him are one and the same person... maybe i should call and ask sometime). ha! really fun to listen, especially those girl callers... they really have, umph, sexy voices. hmmm... i'm feeling naughty... bad boy!
the end of boredom
at last... classes will start soon! wtf! why am i feeling this way?! i should be sad about this... but... hmph! so bored here at home... no allowance... no girls... *sigh* you nasty jerk! ; )
at last... classes will start soon! wtf! why am i feeling this way?! i should be sad about this... but... hmph! so bored here at home... no allowance... no girls... *sigh* you nasty jerk! ; )
October 23, 2005
darn! again...
still thinking of setting up another weblog.. actually, i already did.
but, i still think of continuing that deed... damn! i can't decide! and this makes me nuts that i can't post here the week that had gone by. grrrr...
hay, isa na namang walang kwentang tagpi ng aking buhay...
marahil, kelangan ko nang sumigaw ng... tulong!
but, i still think of continuing that deed... damn! i can't decide! and this makes me nuts that i can't post here the week that had gone by. grrrr...
hay, isa na namang walang kwentang tagpi ng aking buhay...
marahil, kelangan ko nang sumigaw ng... tulong!
October 15, 2005
sluggish day
darn! i'm supposed to post earlier this morning, but i didn't manage to due to drowsiness (i went to a birthday bash of a friend/former classmate; i got home around 2 am). instead of going to bed after changing clothes, i still got myself hooked, taking advantage of the free offpeak use of my card (bl@st offers free internet use from 12 midnight till 8 am - i think i should be paid for this 'promotion'... blah, blah). i updated the virus def'ns and downloaded the YM in the background while managing my emails, organizing my friendster account, and posting a testimonial for a friend. whew! i even slept, thinking that the download time would be long. i almost fully lulled myself to sleep to realize that i haven't shut my pC off! so i light-headedly woke up to see that the download finished and then turned it off. good night (or should i say, good morning? nah!).
then i was up 10:55 am. still feeling sleepy, but feeling hungry. i munched 3 julie's bakeshop 'mongo' muffins (again, i think i should be paid for this tag). then came lunch. i really, really felt full. and now, i'm typing this post... blah, my activities...
i'm thinking of setting up a new blog site, and abandoning this friendster blog. but... much work must be done, and i wouldn't waste my time doing that... maybe i'll settle for this one, for now. and i hope i wouldn't change my mind.
then i was up 10:55 am. still feeling sleepy, but feeling hungry. i munched 3 julie's bakeshop 'mongo' muffins (again, i think i should be paid for this tag). then came lunch. i really, really felt full. and now, i'm typing this post... blah, my activities...
i'm thinking of setting up a new blog site, and abandoning this friendster blog. but... much work must be done, and i wouldn't waste my time doing that... maybe i'll settle for this one, for now. and i hope i wouldn't change my mind.
October 11, 2005
sa wakas!
hay... natapos din! my first semester is officially over! the chem finals was quite easy... just finished it for only 30 minutes! tama si ma'am, matatapos namin agad. ang saya!
exempted ako sa finals sa accounting! kaya nga lang hindi ko na-ace yung third exam dun... got 10 mistakes. late kasi ako that day tapos medyo bangag pa... tsk tsk tsk.
hay... bakasyon for less than a month... and i saw one of my classmate/crush for the last time today... hay... gonna miss her... sad my boyfriend na sya... ok lang. wala pa naman akong balak. happy dahil medyo close kami... and i got her numbers... (*edited* baka mabuko ako!) ang babaw... pero masaya! ayos!
exempted ako sa finals sa accounting! kaya nga lang hindi ko na-ace yung third exam dun... got 10 mistakes. late kasi ako that day tapos medyo bangag pa... tsk tsk tsk.
hay... bakasyon for less than a month... and i saw one of my classmate/crush for the last time today... hay... gonna miss her... sad my boyfriend na sya... ok lang. wala pa naman akong balak. happy dahil medyo close kami... and i got her numbers... (*edited* baka mabuko ako!) ang babaw... pero masaya! ayos!
October 7, 2005
entropy, society and universe
spontaneous processes happen with very little or no driving force. the concept of entropy... that spontaneous processes tend to move towards greater disorder. and since most of the processes in the universe are spontaneous, therefore the universe is moving towards greater disorder. and to move from disorder to order, an ample amount of force must be applied - a nonspontanoues process.
isn't it weird? every day, we are applying so much force to keep things in order, to keep the world in some sort of organization.
for example - my room (maybe yours too). i hardly notice that every single day, my room gets a little disorganized. after a week, i see the difference - my table messy, items in disarray, papers unevenly stacked. why? spontaneous process. i did my thing for the whole week, and things got disorganized. not that i intend it to, but it did. spontaneous process. then i have to exert force to put things back into place. nonspontaneous process. got it?
same thing with the world. immense force is used to enforce the law that keeps things in place. imagine...
but why go against spontaneity? why, if things will eventually go to greater disorder?
i perceive that we have done much to achieve order and the much coveted peace. and i perceive too that that we've only done much to move the world into greater disorder... like the universe.
[the higher being, if there is, must have consummed immense power to create order. but where did disorder come from?]
isn't it weird? every day, we are applying so much force to keep things in order, to keep the world in some sort of organization.
for example - my room (maybe yours too). i hardly notice that every single day, my room gets a little disorganized. after a week, i see the difference - my table messy, items in disarray, papers unevenly stacked. why? spontaneous process. i did my thing for the whole week, and things got disorganized. not that i intend it to, but it did. spontaneous process. then i have to exert force to put things back into place. nonspontaneous process. got it?
same thing with the world. immense force is used to enforce the law that keeps things in place. imagine...
but why go against spontaneity? why, if things will eventually go to greater disorder?
i perceive that we have done much to achieve order and the much coveted peace. and i perceive too that that we've only done much to move the world into greater disorder... like the universe.
[the higher being, if there is, must have consummed immense power to create order. but where did disorder come from?]
October 6, 2005
alang magawa
... sa kwarto
sembreak na... at wala akong magawa. pero may exam pa ako sa oct 11 at may group report pang gagawin. hay, buhay... kaya'y heto, nakatambay lang sa bahay. nakakainis, di ko masimulang malinis at maayos ang aking kwarto dahil di pa 'officially' tapos ang sem ko. puro alikabok na ang likod ng PC ko. naninilaw na. ang mga sunday newspapers, magulong naka-stack under my drawer. hay, nagkalat ang manipis na kumot ng alikabok! ako lang naman ang gumugamit sa kwarto, puro alikabok pa rin! kung wag ko na lang kaya gamitin???
hindi! hay... may topak na naman ako. kawawa naman ang comfort zone ko...
... kaya nananaginip na lang
ang weirdo ng mga napapanaginipan ko... kwento ko yung ilan, baka may info kayo sa bagay na lumalabas sa tulog kong kaisipan.
1) [eto yung pinakabago] nasa isang sinehan ako, sa loob ng isang military base. class ko raw yun sa environmental science (what!). nanood kami ng movie about famous military medics, etc. nang matapos ang palabas, nagkaroon ng discussion then uwian na. kinusap ako at ang groupmates ko later ng aming lalaking propesor na taga-military at binigyan ng assignment. mag-research daw kami about HEART, DONGO, AND BONGOON (tao sila) - kung ano ang naging contribution nila sa combat military medical operation. tapos may numbers - 1.35 at 5:2. nailista ko pa sa whiteboard ko, pero nakalimutan ko na ang ibig sabihin. (then i woke up)
2) naglilibot ako sa phase 3A (phase namin sa subdivision) isang araw (pero may konting pagkakaiba sa lugar namin), nang biglang magkaroon ng putukan. marami sila... parang mga goons, armado ng M-16 armalite rifles. nasa may tindahan ako noon, ako yung pinupuntirya nung tatlo. ako naman, tumakbo para makailag, papunta sa gilid ng tindahan. sumilip ako sa kabilang side, nakita ko yung lider nila, may hostage. then biglang sumulpot from nowhere ang isang babae. di ko siya kilala, eventually nakilala ko rin. si "marg" (hindi tunay n pangalan) pala, classmate at groupmate ko sa socio 10. maiikli kasi buhok niya dito. then... (i woke up) [ang ending... may ending 'to, di ko nga lang maalala kung ano. naiwan sa subconscious ko]
3) [pinaka-freaky] agent ako sa military. i have this buddy at escort kami ng isang high-ranking official na may access sa isang 'top secret' na bagay or tao, only those authorized ang pwedeng makakita nun. naglalakad kami sa isang kalsada, nasa harapan namin ang van kung nasaan ang 'top secret'. biglang may umatake sa amin, bullets rained on us. we tried to retaliate. but the enemy is nowhere to be found. then we rushed into a cave, or an underground HQ. me and my buddy were interrogated kasi during the gunfight, we accidentally saw 'top secret'. dahil iyon ay highly classified, any unauthorized people who accessed, saw, or even touched it, even by accident, must die. alam namin yun, SOP kasi. then and there, sa interrogation room, we must die, killed. a headshot will kill us. ang buddy ko ang naunang pinutukan sa ulo, mas handa kasi sya. then ako... mukhang totoo nga sabi nila - when you die, memories of your life will flash back. and it did. umangulngol ang putok. i felt darkness. i felt no more. walang soul. walang reincarnation. end of my existence... [then i woke up. malakas ang pintig ng puso ko. hinihingal. parang totoo. buti nagising ako.]
ilan lang ito sa mga panaginip ko. marami pa. pero konti lang ang naaalala ko paggising ko. saka pag bigla akong ginigising, nakakalimutan ko, kahit alalang-alala ko ang mga detalye nung tulog ako. if i can only unlock what my subconscious contains...
hindi! hay... may topak na naman ako. kawawa naman ang comfort zone ko...
... kaya nananaginip na lang
ang weirdo ng mga napapanaginipan ko... kwento ko yung ilan, baka may info kayo sa bagay na lumalabas sa tulog kong kaisipan.
1) [eto yung pinakabago] nasa isang sinehan ako, sa loob ng isang military base. class ko raw yun sa environmental science (what!). nanood kami ng movie about famous military medics, etc. nang matapos ang palabas, nagkaroon ng discussion then uwian na. kinusap ako at ang groupmates ko later ng aming lalaking propesor na taga-military at binigyan ng assignment. mag-research daw kami about HEART, DONGO, AND BONGOON (tao sila) - kung ano ang naging contribution nila sa combat military medical operation. tapos may numbers - 1.35 at 5:2. nailista ko pa sa whiteboard ko, pero nakalimutan ko na ang ibig sabihin. (then i woke up)
2) naglilibot ako sa phase 3A (phase namin sa subdivision) isang araw (pero may konting pagkakaiba sa lugar namin), nang biglang magkaroon ng putukan. marami sila... parang mga goons, armado ng M-16 armalite rifles. nasa may tindahan ako noon, ako yung pinupuntirya nung tatlo. ako naman, tumakbo para makailag, papunta sa gilid ng tindahan. sumilip ako sa kabilang side, nakita ko yung lider nila, may hostage. then biglang sumulpot from nowhere ang isang babae. di ko siya kilala, eventually nakilala ko rin. si "marg" (hindi tunay n pangalan) pala, classmate at groupmate ko sa socio 10. maiikli kasi buhok niya dito. then... (i woke up) [ang ending... may ending 'to, di ko nga lang maalala kung ano. naiwan sa subconscious ko]
3) [pinaka-freaky] agent ako sa military. i have this buddy at escort kami ng isang high-ranking official na may access sa isang 'top secret' na bagay or tao, only those authorized ang pwedeng makakita nun. naglalakad kami sa isang kalsada, nasa harapan namin ang van kung nasaan ang 'top secret'. biglang may umatake sa amin, bullets rained on us. we tried to retaliate. but the enemy is nowhere to be found. then we rushed into a cave, or an underground HQ. me and my buddy were interrogated kasi during the gunfight, we accidentally saw 'top secret'. dahil iyon ay highly classified, any unauthorized people who accessed, saw, or even touched it, even by accident, must die. alam namin yun, SOP kasi. then and there, sa interrogation room, we must die, killed. a headshot will kill us. ang buddy ko ang naunang pinutukan sa ulo, mas handa kasi sya. then ako... mukhang totoo nga sabi nila - when you die, memories of your life will flash back. and it did. umangulngol ang putok. i felt darkness. i felt no more. walang soul. walang reincarnation. end of my existence... [then i woke up. malakas ang pintig ng puso ko. hinihingal. parang totoo. buti nagising ako.]
ilan lang ito sa mga panaginip ko. marami pa. pero konti lang ang naaalala ko paggising ko. saka pag bigla akong ginigising, nakakalimutan ko, kahit alalang-alala ko ang mga detalye nung tulog ako. if i can only unlock what my subconscious contains...
September 29, 2005
basura at pag-alala
ngayon, gagawa ako ng artikulo para sa aking "blog" na gamit ang wikang Filipino lamang. di man akma, sa tingin ko'y ayos naman...
kaasar na mga patalastas
bakit kaya ganun? ang mga patalastas na naglipana ngayon... hindi na nakasentro sa mismong produkto, kundi sa sosyal na intekaksyon sa napapaloob sa paggamit ng produkto. ang pokus ay umiikot sa mga posibilidad na pwedeng mangyari sa paggamit, paghawak, o kahit pagtingin sa isang produkto. at dahil nakakahalina ang ganitong tema, nasisiil ang kritisismo sa diwa ng mga konsyumer at manonood.
isang nakakinis ay ang mapanlinlang na mga mensaheng nais iparating ng mga patalastas na ito. "the world is mine" ng toyota fortuner; "get the axe effect" ng axe; "it's everything" ng toyota vios. mga mensaheng walang katotohanan. kung hindi man, (sa tingin ko'y) walang koneksyon tulad ng "lupit ever" ng nescafe. ano yung malupit?! anong klase bang promosyon yan.
hay... mga walang kwentang puna mula sa isang walang kwentang manonood.
katapusan
sa makalawa, opisyal na magtatapos ang unang semstre para sa taong pang-akademiko '05-'06. BAKASYON! ang dami kong mami-miss. ang mag-aral, ang aklatang sobrang lamig (lagi), mga kaklase, guro, kaibigan, at syempre ang aking (mga) sinta (crush) na walang puknat na nagpapaganda ng aking araw. kaya't heto, matetengga na naman sa pinakamamahal kong kwarto at bahay...
mag-isa na naman ako... sana may kahit papano... may magtext...
kaasar na mga patalastas
bakit kaya ganun? ang mga patalastas na naglipana ngayon... hindi na nakasentro sa mismong produkto, kundi sa sosyal na intekaksyon sa napapaloob sa paggamit ng produkto. ang pokus ay umiikot sa mga posibilidad na pwedeng mangyari sa paggamit, paghawak, o kahit pagtingin sa isang produkto. at dahil nakakahalina ang ganitong tema, nasisiil ang kritisismo sa diwa ng mga konsyumer at manonood.
isang nakakinis ay ang mapanlinlang na mga mensaheng nais iparating ng mga patalastas na ito. "the world is mine" ng toyota fortuner; "get the axe effect" ng axe; "it's everything" ng toyota vios. mga mensaheng walang katotohanan. kung hindi man, (sa tingin ko'y) walang koneksyon tulad ng "lupit ever" ng nescafe. ano yung malupit?! anong klase bang promosyon yan.
hay... mga walang kwentang puna mula sa isang walang kwentang manonood.
katapusan
sa makalawa, opisyal na magtatapos ang unang semstre para sa taong pang-akademiko '05-'06. BAKASYON! ang dami kong mami-miss. ang mag-aral, ang aklatang sobrang lamig (lagi), mga kaklase, guro, kaibigan, at syempre ang aking (mga) sinta (crush) na walang puknat na nagpapaganda ng aking araw. kaya't heto, matetengga na naman sa pinakamamahal kong kwarto at bahay...
mag-isa na naman ako... sana may kahit papano... may magtext...
September 24, 2005
snobbish goodbye
a snob thought
what a snob i am! i can 'automatically' turn into one after a friendly encounter with other peeps. shet! sometimes it's my fault. well, the least thing i could do is smile and make myself look approachable. but it doesn't always work.
even people i have made some sort of contact with seem to shy away from me (or maybe i shy away from them). there is still some sort of divide though we already communicated with each other. grrr... people.
but it's ok. i respect them so i hope they also respect my attitude. i know, people are different. you can't change them to someone you want them to be. ohh... my angst...
the end is near...
one week to go before bakasyon! hay, happy-kinda-sad ako ngayon. happy coz pahinga na naman nang mahaba, wala nang alalahanin, at maaayos ko na uli ang nagulo kong kwarto. sad dahil goodbye muna sa friends and classmates, la nang allowance, at wala munang masisilayang mgae crush (kainis!). well ang bilis talaga ng panahon... at ang dami pang dapat gawin!!!!
what a snob i am! i can 'automatically' turn into one after a friendly encounter with other peeps. shet! sometimes it's my fault. well, the least thing i could do is smile and make myself look approachable. but it doesn't always work.
even people i have made some sort of contact with seem to shy away from me (or maybe i shy away from them). there is still some sort of divide though we already communicated with each other. grrr... people.
but it's ok. i respect them so i hope they also respect my attitude. i know, people are different. you can't change them to someone you want them to be. ohh... my angst...
the end is near...
one week to go before bakasyon! hay, happy-kinda-sad ako ngayon. happy coz pahinga na naman nang mahaba, wala nang alalahanin, at maaayos ko na uli ang nagulo kong kwarto. sad dahil goodbye muna sa friends and classmates, la nang allowance, at wala munang masisilayang mgae crush (kainis!). well ang bilis talaga ng panahon... at ang dami pang dapat gawin!!!!
September 9, 2005
all this time...
happy birthday!
yeah, right. happy birthday to me! this day is not so extraordinary anymore. it just came and passed by. greeting consoled me. thanks to those who greeted, remembered, or even just thought about it for a second. they're deeply appreciated. hay. i think my remembering my birthday is just to add a jolt to my plain, normal life... anyway, i'm happy to be like this... single and all!
but i got a surprise! an unexpected "gift," given by 'circumstances'. i always see her there at the mess hall and always thought of being with her. hay... sorry, i can't elaborate more, she might read this... oh what a tease! hahaha!
tuning off, bothering myself...
it now annoys me to watch early evening "news," if that's what people call it, due to the fact that there is nothing new anymore in our political slimate. same themes, same motives, same situations, but different actors. yes, actors, well most of them. bureaucrats are hard to find nowadays.
what must i do? i can't just head on to the streets to shout my sentiments for an upheaval. no! but it bothers me every moment i think about our country. i just can't throw away my thoughts, no.
having a good life
AIT makes me happy, my acads are doing fine, i have enough money, and i enjoy my freakin' single life! but i haven't enjoyed its full potential though. i still need to expand my social horizon, liven up my nights, and shed my seclusion to my home... right. but i can't just expand my horizon. certain obstacles hinder me from going out to places. even though, i enjoy my current state. and i will patiently wait for change to happen.
yeah, right. happy birthday to me! this day is not so extraordinary anymore. it just came and passed by. greeting consoled me. thanks to those who greeted, remembered, or even just thought about it for a second. they're deeply appreciated. hay. i think my remembering my birthday is just to add a jolt to my plain, normal life... anyway, i'm happy to be like this... single and all!
but i got a surprise! an unexpected "gift," given by 'circumstances'. i always see her there at the mess hall and always thought of being with her. hay... sorry, i can't elaborate more, she might read this... oh what a tease! hahaha!
tuning off, bothering myself...
it now annoys me to watch early evening "news," if that's what people call it, due to the fact that there is nothing new anymore in our political slimate. same themes, same motives, same situations, but different actors. yes, actors, well most of them. bureaucrats are hard to find nowadays.
what must i do? i can't just head on to the streets to shout my sentiments for an upheaval. no! but it bothers me every moment i think about our country. i just can't throw away my thoughts, no.
having a good life
AIT makes me happy, my acads are doing fine, i have enough money, and i enjoy my freakin' single life! but i haven't enjoyed its full potential though. i still need to expand my social horizon, liven up my nights, and shed my seclusion to my home... right. but i can't just expand my horizon. certain obstacles hinder me from going out to places. even though, i enjoy my current state. and i will patiently wait for change to happen.
August 2, 2005
horny
wala lang... another facet of my person overpowers me. my heart thumps louder. i can feel my body rise from the ashes of my corrupting soul. yes... more and more, i feel like a maniac. shit. i am devoured by the materialism of this world, and i let it be, for i feel powerless against it, rather i enjoy the sensation of being overpowered. i know the this facet will persist to control me, but not the surge i feel at the moment...
then it happens...
... i was powerless again. it felt like every drop of life in me was consumed. but i cherished the feeling. then, i must put things to rest...
then it happens...
... i was powerless again. it felt like every drop of life in me was consumed. but i cherished the feeling. then, i must put things to rest...
July 26, 2005
depressed
well, it's just an ego thing, but i feel depressed. why? nyah... acad stuff... bullshit.
ok naman yung chem, mataas naman. pero i was expecting more. shit, i was too overconfident.
how FOOLISH, DUMB, MORON, IMBECILE, IDIOT ASSHOLE i was this afternoon during the tour110 exam!!!!!!!!! tang'na! i hate myself at this moment... for being different. ang sabi yellow pad, YELLOW PAD!!!!!!! anong ginamit ko.... WHITE... WHITE!!! bakit? gusto ko eh. kasi yun ang meron ako sa bahay. bakit kasi ang gago ko?! pakshet! so instead of passing my paper, ipinasuyo ko sa seatmate ko to pass it along with hers. agad akong lumabas ng room sa takot.... oo, natakot ako. iniisip ko na lang... a lone set of white papers in a bunch of yellow. shet! i am doomed! or am i just being paranoid? huh?
iba talaga maging iba...
nakakadepress... dumagdag pa si gloria... ang bansa at mga bagay-bagay.
ok naman yung chem, mataas naman. pero i was expecting more. shit, i was too overconfident.
how FOOLISH, DUMB, MORON, IMBECILE, IDIOT ASSHOLE i was this afternoon during the tour110 exam!!!!!!!!! tang'na! i hate myself at this moment... for being different. ang sabi yellow pad, YELLOW PAD!!!!!!! anong ginamit ko.... WHITE... WHITE!!! bakit? gusto ko eh. kasi yun ang meron ako sa bahay. bakit kasi ang gago ko?! pakshet! so instead of passing my paper, ipinasuyo ko sa seatmate ko to pass it along with hers. agad akong lumabas ng room sa takot.... oo, natakot ako. iniisip ko na lang... a lone set of white papers in a bunch of yellow. shet! i am doomed! or am i just being paranoid? huh?
iba talaga maging iba...
nakakadepress... dumagdag pa si gloria... ang bansa at mga bagay-bagay.
July 7, 2005
so far...
buhay-buhay
ayos naman ang buhay sa AIT. konti pa lang ang college friends. ewan ko ba, nahihirapan akong makipag-socialize, di ko tuloy mapalawak ang connections ko. basta! i need to do something!
hay naku...
reports, reports. ganito pala dito. ok lang. galingan ko na lang. medyo nakaka-recover na rin ako mentally at physically (ung operasyon ko). hay.
nicole
hay, nicole. yan ang lagi kong nasasambit pagbaba ng jeep sa tapat ng petron, sa may panulukan ng katipunan at aurora. hay nicole. ganda niya at ng smile nya. buti na lang at nandun ang malaking pond's billboard nya. ang gandang pambungad ng skul day!
she's on the cover ng july ish of T3. sana makabili ako... kung nakabili lang kasi ako ng feb ish ng UNO... may maike na rin sana ako...
ayos naman ang buhay sa AIT. konti pa lang ang college friends. ewan ko ba, nahihirapan akong makipag-socialize, di ko tuloy mapalawak ang connections ko. basta! i need to do something!
hay naku...
reports, reports. ganito pala dito. ok lang. galingan ko na lang. medyo nakaka-recover na rin ako mentally at physically (ung operasyon ko). hay.
nicole
hay, nicole. yan ang lagi kong nasasambit pagbaba ng jeep sa tapat ng petron, sa may panulukan ng katipunan at aurora. hay nicole. ganda niya at ng smile nya. buti na lang at nandun ang malaking pond's billboard nya. ang gandang pambungad ng skul day!
she's on the cover ng july ish of T3. sana makabili ako... kung nakabili lang kasi ako ng feb ish ng UNO... may maike na rin sana ako...
June 30, 2005
loving or being loved???
paano nga ba? siguro nga wala lang akong magawa sa panahong ito kaya napatulan ko itong topic na ito. hindi may nabasa lang ako... so kung di nyo trip ang walang kwenta kong isunulat, click 'back' and read other posts.
falling in love... walang 'idiot's guide' para dito. kanya-kanyang diskarte na lang kung paano 'magfa-fall'.
di basta-basta dumarating ang love. some circumstances bring love. pero kung wala ka ring gagawin, di mo yun makukuha. di magkakaroon ng consequence kung walang cause di ba?
walang standard na sinusunod ang love. may kanya-kanyang standards ang mga taong involved. huwag nyong gagayahin ang mga napapanood sa tv kung di nyo feel gawin or kung gusto nyong gawin para lang magmukhang 'sweet'.
tao lang ang nagpapahirap sa sarili nila, hindi love.
napakamanhid, di ba... kung relative ang love, ba't ko pa to sinulat para basahin. wala lang... basta mahalaga, masaya tayong lahat! adieu!
June 24, 2005
... after the long break
hay, long break. nito lang kasi ako bumili ulit ng internet card. almost 2 weeks din akong 'unhooked'. hay...
crash into me...
sayang, di pa rin nare-recover ang mga files sa nag-crash kong hard drive. buti may nakita akong shop sa shopping center na may paskil na: "data recovery 434-7888". yun nga lang di ko pa napupuntahan o tinatawagan. siguro sa lunes ko gagawin. sayang kasi yun panahong binuno ko sa aking photo collection... ang gaganda pa naman...
back to skul!
back as a tourism stud. so far, okay naman. downside, i have to start all over again - establish new relationships, adjust to a new atmosphere, study a new course. ang upside naman - cute girls! harharhar! saka mababait ang mga staff dun. ika nga nila noong freshies, shiftees, and transferees' orientation - AIT is one big family...
crash into me...
sayang, di pa rin nare-recover ang mga files sa nag-crash kong hard drive. buti may nakita akong shop sa shopping center na may paskil na: "data recovery 434-7888". yun nga lang di ko pa napupuntahan o tinatawagan. siguro sa lunes ko gagawin. sayang kasi yun panahong binuno ko sa aking photo collection... ang gaganda pa naman...
back to skul!
back as a tourism stud. so far, okay naman. downside, i have to start all over again - establish new relationships, adjust to a new atmosphere, study a new course. ang upside naman - cute girls! harharhar! saka mababait ang mga staff dun. ika nga nila noong freshies, shiftees, and transferees' orientation - AIT is one big family...
Preview June ish 10th anniv
astig! it's worth my money. i even think i got more than what i expected. the photoshoots are really amazing. bea, iza, alex, anne, mariel, bianca, olivia, maike, kat, and cheska. ang theme kasi is they're TVs young stars. just wondering ba't nasama si cheska dun, e sa xtra challenge lang siya lumabas. sana si toni na lang, or amanda, even nicole. hay... nicole... buti may billboard ka sa katips.
May 31, 2005
cRash!!!
hay naku!!! pu#$%^&n@!!! kung kelan magpa-pasukan saka nag-crash hard drive ko!! gastos na naman! naaawa naa ako sa mama ko kasi daming gastos... bumili ng 2 gulong para sa fx. Php 1,015.09 na bill sa telepono (ang normal na bill di lalampas ng 700. kasalanan ko, nag-vibe kasi ako. bwisit na tax!). Php 1,552.25 naman sa kuryente (init kasi this summer!). tapos ang bagong seagate hard drive... Php 3,000! oh hindi!!!!!!
ang masaklap... baka di na makuha ung files sa lumang drive! huhuhu... ang files nung high skul (ung thesis!), files ng kapatid ko, kay mama (lalo na ang thesis nya), files ngayong college, mga wallpapers, pictures, at ung mgafiles... waaaaaa!!!!! baka di na ma-retrieve!!! sana lang, ipagdarasal ko, na magawang makuha yun ni kuya joel (ang technician na galing pang morong)... huhuhu...
but, looking at the bright side, 40GB na HD ko... malinis na uli ung system ko... wala nang mga spyware at adware... pero... i miss my filesss!!!
after all, let thy will be done... (seryoso... ewan.)
ang masaklap... baka di na makuha ung files sa lumang drive! huhuhu... ang files nung high skul (ung thesis!), files ng kapatid ko, kay mama (lalo na ang thesis nya), files ngayong college, mga wallpapers, pictures, at ung mga
but, looking at the bright side, 40GB na HD ko... malinis na uli ung system ko... wala nang mga spyware at adware... pero... i miss my filesss!!!
after all, let thy will be done... (seryoso... ewan.)
May 24, 2005
no turning back
at last, i formalized my shift from physics to tourism. i have the pertinent documents, just need to submit them before i enroll. grabe, ang hirap maglakad (literally)!
went to edsa central afterwards to buy the flip-flops i spotted two weeks ago sa IFU shop. sadly, size 9 wasn't available anymore... damn! in fairness, affordable yung buys dun... iba na lang siguro bibilin ko dun, pagbalik ko...
went to edsa central afterwards to buy the flip-flops i spotted two weeks ago sa IFU shop. sadly, size 9 wasn't available anymore... damn! in fairness, affordable yung buys dun... iba na lang siguro bibilin ko dun, pagbalik ko...
May 20, 2005
such a happy time
i made it!
last wednesday, i've been blessed, so blessed. fate (oh no!) gave in to my plan. i was accepted in tourism!!! hahaha! another chance to study in UP. another chance to prove myself to myself (ha?!), i mean to reedem my shattered self-esteem. hay, this darn ego thing... everything is slowly falling back into their place.
but missed.
today, after some arrangements in school, i planned to buy this month's issue of Chalk. shucks! it's bianca! but i missed it. darn, i missed it... anyway, i'm blessed... ; )
internet to sawa!
thanks blast! such a reaaly great promo! 12mn-2pm, all i need... highly recommended!
happy times... thanks!
last wednesday, i've been blessed, so blessed. fate (oh no!) gave in to my plan. i was accepted in tourism!!! hahaha! another chance to study in UP. another chance to prove myself to myself (ha?!), i mean to reedem my shattered self-esteem. hay, this darn ego thing... everything is slowly falling back into their place.
but missed.
today, after some arrangements in school, i planned to buy this month's issue of Chalk. shucks! it's bianca! but i missed it. darn, i missed it... anyway, i'm blessed... ; )
internet to sawa!
thanks blast! such a reaaly great promo! 12mn-2pm, all i need... highly recommended!
happy times... thanks!
May 13, 2005
bianca. bianca. bianca.
last night, i had a fateful encounter with bianca, again. humph... saw her in wazzup wazzup. really cool. got that flair in hosting. oh, how dazed i am!
she's on chalk's cover, sadly, with christian bautista. it would be a lot better if she's solo. cute face, nice tan, hearty smile. hay, mushy thoughts...
that's why i try to watch 'breakfast supersize.' she makes my day!
and the fantasy goes on...
she's on chalk's cover, sadly, with christian bautista. it would be a lot better if she's solo. cute face, nice tan, hearty smile. hay, mushy thoughts...
that's why i try to watch 'breakfast supersize.' she makes my day!
and the fantasy goes on...
May 12, 2005
hopes and fears
my academic life is in the balance. i filed shifting applications for tourism, public administration, and sociology. and this afternoon, i had my interview in tourism. i hope that i will be accepted. no! i PRAY that i will be accepted. it's weird, pero, i slowly nourish my re-growing faith. still, i fear being out of the 'accepted' list. hay...
though i applied in three courses, i already laid my cards for tourism.
i'm afraid. i don't want to leave UP!
though i applied in three courses, i already laid my cards for tourism.
i'm afraid. i don't want to leave UP!
May 8, 2005
... of life and death
in death...
the other night, i was going to be killed. i had seen a forbidden sight. i was taken, together with two 'sentenced' people, in a cave by a team of operatives. we were briefed that we would be killed by headshot.
my lungs cramped. i was dazed.
the moment came. i was the first to go. i tried to hesistate, but it must be done. i sighed. it felt oh so real, kahit sa panaginip lang...
or life
last night, i happened to watch "homerun" sa ABCinema. story of 2 siblings and their family... what a film... naaalala ko yung closing lines (yung thought na lang naalala ko, kakaisip kasi kagabi) "with our old shoes, we don't notice our problems. but with our new ones, can we now see them?"
hay, buhay. i have a lot to thank for...
the other night, i was going to be killed. i had seen a forbidden sight. i was taken, together with two 'sentenced' people, in a cave by a team of operatives. we were briefed that we would be killed by headshot.
my lungs cramped. i was dazed.
the moment came. i was the first to go. i tried to hesistate, but it must be done. i sighed. it felt oh so real, kahit sa panaginip lang...
or life
last night, i happened to watch "homerun" sa ABCinema. story of 2 siblings and their family... what a film... naaalala ko yung closing lines (yung thought na lang naalala ko, kakaisip kasi kagabi) "with our old shoes, we don't notice our problems. but with our new ones, can we now see them?"
hay, buhay. i have a lot to thank for...
May 5, 2005
brrrr.....
shucks! i woke up early today, hehe, just to be online... free kasi pag offpeak hours. hay... so bored na ako sa bahay, worse, wala pang pera. tsk,tsk,tsk (di kasi nag-summer). hay, i miss school, especially the girls...
last night,'paranioa' struck me... again.
last night,'paranioa' struck me... again.
April 28, 2005
dumb, silly ass night (funny though)
last night, i was listening to the radio while lulling myself to sleep. after the 10 Biggies (sa RT 'to) the DJ wanted to cheer up a sad listener online. so he cranked others to send corny, dumb, silly ass jokes. here were some i could remember before losing to sleep...
Q: who's the sister of barbie doll? A: kitchie na-doll...
Q: why is 6 afraid of 7? A: because 7 ate 9!
Q: which animal is bulletproof? A: pa-ting
sadly (or luckily), i was soon drifting out of consciousness... off for a new day!
Q: who's the sister of barbie doll? A: kitchie na-doll...
Q: why is 6 afraid of 7? A: because 7 ate 9!
Q: which animal is bulletproof? A: pa-ting
sadly (or luckily), i was soon drifting out of consciousness... off for a new day!
April 26, 2005
another boring day...
yes... it's like this every day. i try to motivate myself to do something, yet, my body lags. i sit by my computer, try to delight myself. just delight, no satisfaction. brr... it's hard to act lazy during vacation...
April 21, 2005
mabuhay!
hay, my new blog...
i hope i could get things started here. darn, ang gulo ng ng mundo! lalo na ng buhay ko. ewan ko ba, pero alam ko. naghahanap na nga ako ng malilipatan, sana di ako masibak sa skul. hay, lintek! pero masaya pa rin kahit ganito na ang nangyayari. sna may mangyari...
i hope i could get things started here. darn, ang gulo ng ng mundo! lalo na ng buhay ko. ewan ko ba, pero alam ko. naghahanap na nga ako ng malilipatan, sana di ako masibak sa skul. hay, lintek! pero masaya pa rin kahit ganito na ang nangyayari. sna may mangyari...
whew! that's really loooong..... cheers!
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